Let me explain. All my life I have always thought I'm too fat, I'm not pretty, I'm not smart enough, or I'm not talented enough. All of that has always held me back from doing what I've wanted to do. I always wanted to be the pretty girl through out my life, unafraid of judgment from others, and unafraid to do anything. I've never been like that though because I have held myself back. It's time to make some changes. I am going to better myself and be honest with myself now, right here, and share with you all why I'm amazing, and what I hope to be.
No matter what people saw, how they look at me, or what I even think, I am beautiful. 2 weeks ago, I weighed 340lbs and I hated myself for it. That's right, I am willing to admit it. I have lost 15 lbs since then and now weigh 325lbs and feel amazing. It's shocking what a 15lb difference can do for you. My favorite t-shirt gets me harrassed:
|Proof that I am a dork, but this was taken about 2 months ago. I'm wearing my fav Shirt that says: It's okay Pluto, I'm not a planet either|
I could be a dork, wear something like this, and people just said "Oh, that's Markie... she's a spazz" and people loved me for it. I can say one thing with certainty... I have spunk, I have an award-winning personality, and I am damn proud of it.
Over the past 2 months... I have met some amazing women that have empowered me. I'm about to tell you why
#1-- Carolyn Setina
blog is geared towards inspiring women and letting them know it's okay to be who you are, no matter what others say. She shows me on a daily basis now that I should be proud of who and what I am, and I'm going to do that. Thanks to her, after I've lost more of my weight and I am more comfortable with myself, I will be joining the Suicide Girls and indulging in some tasteful, semi-nudes of my own.
#2- Elizabeth Chrisjansen
blog is a mish mash of things, but shows her talent as a photographer, and I want to be like her in that field someday. I'm working on it but it will take some time. You also have to love the pink hair.
#3 Amanda Moline
blog documents her life with them, the frustrations and hardships of being a mom of two children with disabilities, and gives reviews on various products and brands. Once I have children, if I am half as dedicated as Amanda, I will be happy.
#4 Heather Frost
#5 Ashley Blankenship
All of these women are amazing in their own unique way. If I could bottle up their strengths and sell them, I'd be a millionaire. I love them and hope they are going to where they want to be in their lives because God only knows, they deserve it.
My reason for writing all of this: My intention for this blog was to be about beauty tips, tricks, and products. The most important one is realizing you are beautiful. If you don't think you are beautiful, inside and out, then you will never be happy with yourself, and no matter what I write, it won't help you. If you take anything from this blog, take this piece of advice: Love yourself, because you are beautiful as you are, and any tips and tricks I give you, will only enhance what you already are. A beautiful, amazing, and independent woman.
Comment below with who inspires you... I would love to know